A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away I used to blog regularly. I had my own domain, I ran fanlistings, I updated almost daily. Then, a horrible no good very bad thing called Depression happened to me. And I lost interest in pretty much everything. I stopped blogging. I stopped interacting with people online. Everything fell into ruins around me.
Now, I would love to sit here and say I’m cured, everything is coming up roses but… it really isn’t. I still struggle with my mental health – and am very candid about it. What I can say is that I miss blogging and all the *handwavey* things that go with it. So I’m fighting back.
This is step one.
Hi! My name’s Paula and I look something a little like this. The first thing you should know about me is that I’m a Slasher. And a geek. And damn proud of both.
Fandom and my friends are the most important things in my life. I work to live, not live to work. I live for gigs, for doing the things that make me happy. Happiness is the one of the most important things any person can have.
I am a Payables Officer for a faith-based international aid charity who are putting me through my accounting qualifications. This is equal parts incredibly awesome and utterly terrifying. I’m not necessarily sure I want to be an accountant but I’m not going to turn down the opportunity.
And yes, I talk about work. About the people I work with, rant about them and the suppliers and the stupid things people do, frustrations I have with the system. I talk about the languages I hear, interesting nuggets about the religion and the culture, my experience working within a culture that’s so different to mine. Because honestly, I find it all fascinating. I mentioned being a geek, yes? LOL
What else is important for you to know?
I’m gay. I’m kinky. I have 7 tattoos and 6 piercings. I have arthritis in my hips and knees and walk on crutches – I’m supposed to use them all the time but only really use them when I’m struggling/if I know I’m going to be doing a lot of standing or walking. I fucking hate my sticks. I suffer from depression.
Actually, I talk about my mental health issues a lot. I’m very candid about my struggles with depression, with self-harm, with binge-eating and purging.
I love, amongst other things, slash fanfiction, music, gigs, reading, pizza, chocolate, tattoos, piercings, tarot, angels, faeries, the internet, my friends, cooking, travelling, history (especially War Of The Roses/Tudors/Stuarts), watching far too many tv shows but especially Stargate SG1, Stargate Atlantis, Saving Hope and The Librarians, listening to all the music, with special love for Raintown, Gary Quin and 80s rock music, bad movies, horror, science-fiction… it’s a fairly endless list that changes like all the time haha
My journal is NOT friends only I openly blog about… pretty much any/everything… my friends, my family, my job, the woman who loves me, the woman I love, my Dominant, my sex life, dreams, wishes, fantasies… i post fanfiction and fangirling and rambling and poetry and articles and essays and memes and lots of pictures… like i said, it’s a little bit of everything rolled into one. Just like me, really!
so yeah, that’s me! *waves*